Today, I suddenly feel the urge to write. Actually, I just watched a movie called "Love, Rosie" which is an adaptation of Cecilia Ahern's novel called "Where Rainbows End". It's a story about Rosie and Alex who were bestfriends since they were little. As they grew up, they developed strong feelings for each other but failed to recognize it. But when they do, they kept missing out on each other and time is fooling them. They never get their timing right. Even when the other got married or have kids, their feelings never changed. They kept supporting each other as best friends would be. After years and years of missing out on each other, they finally get things sorted out. A bit late, but better late than never.
Actually I've seen this movie a few times before but I loved to watch it again and again, so that I can relive the feeling of being in love and the pain of heartbreak. I had a similar story, well minus the happy ending. I had a good friend, who were always there when I needed him. But as we grew closer, I became afraid of my own feelings. I was scared of becoming too attached to him, so I pushed him away. I cut contact from him because I was afraid that I might not be able to control my own feelings. In the end, I hurt him and we grew apart.
A few years later, I contacted him to apologized for what I did was unfair. I told him about my feelings. All he said to me was "Why didn't you tell me about this before?". He thought I met someone else when the truth was I liked him but was too afraid to let him know. Then, a few months later I got the news that he got married to someone else. I was shocked at first because he never mention anything before but who could blame him. I hurt him first. I sincerely hope he is happy with whomever he chooses. As for me, I moved on but still haven't found the right one yet. Not really looking for anyone though, but sometimes I just thought it would be nice to have someone to share your everything with. I guess we all have that sense of belonging, right?
Love,
Faizah
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