My High School Crush

Assalamualaikum & Hi Readers,

This entry will have a mix of both Malay and English language so that I can really pour my heart out. Please bear with me ya. So, from the title you can already guess what I'm going to talk about. Yes, I'm going to talk about my high school crush but why so suddenly? I've already forgotten about him like ages ago. Actually, I received a wedding invitation from him a few days ago and I can't help but reminisce about our high school days.

I first met him when I moved to a new school when I was 14. Never really liked him at first because he was a troublemaker at school. Always getting scolded by teachers and always getting into trouble. Honestly, I don't even remember when I first started having crush on him but I guess since we were classmates at the time, we spent a lot of time together. The more I get to know him, the more I see the good side of him. He was the class clown so he get along just fine with everyone but I was the total opposite. I was so shy I couldn't talk to anyone and ended up going around alone. He helped me getting adjusted to this new school so I wouldn't feel left out.

Even though he was a troublemaker, I could see that he has a good heart. Before I know it, I started having a crush on him but I was too shy to let him know. I was devastated when I found out he had a girlfriend when we were 15 but I kept my feelings to myself. Kadang-kadang aku terfikir juga "What if I confessed my feelings to him at that time? Would things have ended up differently?". But I never muster up the courage to do so and I thought I closed that chapter when we graduated high school.

The lingering feelings come and go as we do stay in touch. Sometimes, he would call me asking about life and everything and that made me miss our high school days. I still remember the time when our classmates went on a picnic at the beach and we have no care for the world. Ten years passed by in an instant, his wedding invitation made me realized that we are getting older now and that chapter has really come to an end.

He is someone I hold very dear to my heart and I wish him all the happiness in the world. He made my high school days less unbearable so I'm always thankful to him for that. I hereby close another chapter of my life for good. Farewell my high school crush. I wish you all the best in life.

Sayonara.