From "Hati Kering" to "Love Letter"?

Assalamualaikum and Hi my fellow readers,

Hope you guys are doing just fine. If you have been following me since I first started blogging, you might notice a slight change on my blog. Yeah, I changed my blog title from "Hati Kering" to "Love Letter". There's a reason why I changed my blog title.

First of all, I changed my blog title because as I grow older, I realized that I am no longer the hati kering girl as I was before. If you want to know what hati kering is you can check out my previous entry here:

https://faizahar.blogspot.com/2013/01/kenapa-hati-kering.html

Hati kering tu memang dah sebati dalam diri cuma bila umur semakin meningkat kita, perangai hati kering tu dah semakin berkurang. Kita jadi semakin matang dan lebih banyak perasaan simpati(sympathy) dan juga empati(empathy) terhadap orang sekeliling.

The reason I chose Love Letter as my blog title is because love letter is a way of expressing the feelings of love in a written form. For me personally, a love letter doesn't have to be between two people who are romantically in love, it can be between family and friends because love is universal. You can also write a love letter to yourself as a way of showing self-love to appreciate yourself. Writing these love letters gave me the satisfaction of expressing myself in a different way.

Even BTS (방탄소년단) are promoting self-love in which I think it is great because I hoped the campaign can help tackle the issue of recent increase in suicidal rate amongst youth. Honestly, I've been following them for a while now and they have changed my perspective on K-POP genre. I used to think K-POP is a bunch of manufactured bands/groups created just to make money and have no significance in the global music industry.

Boy, was I wrong? They certainly proved me wrong because I've listen to their songs (with English translations of course). All I can say is BTS not only have good quality music but they also have great lyrics. From what I know, BTS even wrote some of their own lyrics and melody which is great. Their lyrics are the things that touched me the most because it shows their struggle and growth throughout the years and it is something a lot of people can relate to especially the younger generations. If you notice, some of their songs are somewhat like a love letter maybe to themselves or maybe to their fans(ARMY). I guess that's why they have a huge following on social media.

OK I think I stray too much from the main topic here but I don't care. This is my blog and I can write whatever I want haha jk. The main point is you can also write yourself a love letter to motivate yourself to do better and improve from time to time. Or maybe write something to reminisce about like your school year, your childhood memories and the things that you used to do for fun. It's all up to you. All you need to do is start doing and less procrastinating. Goodluck!

Sayonara.

My High School Crush

Assalamualaikum & Hi Readers,

This entry will have a mix of both Malay and English language so that I can really pour my heart out. Please bear with me ya. So, from the title you can already guess what I'm going to talk about. Yes, I'm going to talk about my high school crush but why so suddenly? I've already forgotten about him like ages ago. Actually, I received a wedding invitation from him a few days ago and I can't help but reminisce about our high school days.

I first met him when I moved to a new school when I was 14. Never really liked him at first because he was a troublemaker at school. Always getting scolded by teachers and always getting into trouble. Honestly, I don't even remember when I first started having crush on him but I guess since we were classmates at the time, we spent a lot of time together. The more I get to know him, the more I see the good side of him. He was the class clown so he get along just fine with everyone but I was the total opposite. I was so shy I couldn't talk to anyone and ended up going around alone. He helped me getting adjusted to this new school so I wouldn't feel left out.

Even though he was a troublemaker, I could see that he has a good heart. Before I know it, I started having a crush on him but I was too shy to let him know. I was devastated when I found out he had a girlfriend when we were 15 but I kept my feelings to myself. Kadang-kadang aku terfikir juga "What if I confessed my feelings to him at that time? Would things have ended up differently?". But I never muster up the courage to do so and I thought I closed that chapter when we graduated high school.

The lingering feelings come and go as we do stay in touch. Sometimes, he would call me asking about life and everything and that made me miss our high school days. I still remember the time when our classmates went on a picnic at the beach and we have no care for the world. Ten years passed by in an instant, his wedding invitation made me realized that we are getting older now and that chapter has really come to an end.

He is someone I hold very dear to my heart and I wish him all the happiness in the world. He made my high school days less unbearable so I'm always thankful to him for that. I hereby close another chapter of my life for good. Farewell my high school crush. I wish you all the best in life.

Sayonara.